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If she has enough of a personality to be upset over this type of thing wouldn't that imply that she's very powerful, and wouldn't want to share you with another powerful spirit?

[ It only makes sense that she would be Lex's most powerful spirit companion. ]

Would she really be upset with you sharing a Familiar bond with someone like me? I can't compare to a great spirit like her, so there is no reason for jealousy. It would be like being jealous of an ant.

Man if you say that she'll squash you like an ant. And then you'd have to show if you are or aren't and ant and I'm willing to bet that you aren't, really.

[ He says this with a soft roll of his eyes, flat and mildly irritated in tone. It's masking, of course, a painful, horrible familiarity. He's not seen her in months and it's killing him. ]

I am weaker than an ant.

[ He lays back down, though this time makes sure he's in proper loaf form. ]

Pat me more.

[ He'll continue to act cute and demanding for as long as he thinks Lex needs it, because as much as Cale is an asshole he's not such a complete bastard that he would leave a companion alone like this. ]

[ Why??? He doesn't ... ugh. There's no real need to pet this guy, right? He's being demanding at this point. But it's a dull realization he has as he's thinking that, that Lex connects an oddity here, that he's both tolerating this and being actually annoyed. It's... hmm. It's not to say he's felt nothing this whole time here, but something about the character of this is a little different. He doesn't (yet) feel the need to just stand up and walk away but he's also not really focused on the moment.

Still doesn't mean he's going to pet the guy. ]

Your story just there involved death gods and you've been making storms show up. If that's an ant I shudder to think what a "human" is to you.

The God of Death is the bastard responsible for my transmigration. [ He flicks his tail. At this point he is honestly very grateful to have switched places with the original Cale Henituse, but he will never let Death know it. ] If I use these powers too much I will die an agonizing death from recoil, because I am a weak and frail human.

Well yeah, I could have told you that you need to eat more. Probably sleep too.

[ Just given how thin he was. ]

[ There is a lot he could say to that, but instead he just purrs obnoxiously loud. ]

More seriously though, it's precisely because it is a pacted bond like that. That's a different matter than just a relationship, at least to someone like that.

[ A beat, and... ]

... Or I'm just projecting, who knows.

[ The purring quiets down at that. ]

Projecting or not, your feelings about it matter too.

[ His feelings, huh? Lex's eyes shift to a more green color, closer to but lighter than his normal hazel. ]

As if I could forget that. We are ever trapped by who we are, my man.

You're as trapped as you let yourself be.

[ that's not true. And his eyes turn gold to reflect that, as he shakes his head and sighs. ]

Hmm? I didn't expect you to be a pessimist.

[ Sigh. ]

If you want to talk more about her I would like to hear it. If you don't want to right now, that's also fine.

That's not pessimism. [ A beat, ] ... Like, perhaps you've had some many identities this argument seems a little silly, but that's just the truth of it. People can only ever be who they are.

Whether Kim Rok Soo or Cale Henituse, I'm the same person. That person has just changed on the inside over the years because—

[ Because I'm not alone anymore, he realizes. ]

...Haaah.

Because people naturally change over time. The 'you' of now is different than the 'you' from when you were a little kid. And the future 'you' will be different than the current 'you'.

You do realize you just contradicted yourself, right?

[ He shakes his head ]

Of course people change, the whole point is that people are doomed to be themselves, though. It's more scary if people can just be other people.

[ He thinks about what he said, then realizes that it doesn't work in most cases because he was using 'soul' as 'person', and most souls end up being reborn with no memories. ]

'Doomed' is pretty pessimistic language. Also, for most people it is possible to become someone else. Rather, it is inevitable for most people.

[ To grow and change maybe, but to become someone else? Leave that to spirits or demons, as far as he's concerned. Lex shakes his head at the cat and then reaches around him to get another beer. ]

Yeah, yeah. Don't worry, do I even come off as negative?

[ He moves his head to rub his cheek on Lex's arm as the man reaches around him.

Then pulls back looking as baffled as a cat possibly can, wondering why the heck he just did that.

He decides to just ignore it and pretend he didn't do that. ]

I mean, yeah? 'Doomed' is a pretty negative word.

What, you don't like yourself?

[ Said with an impish grin, one which doesn't totally match his own now-dark green eyes. It doesn't seem totally out of step with it, but it's something he says with a laugh ]

Like I said, it's a turn of phrase. I can only be me, and I'm stuck with all that hang ups that implies.

I didn't use to, but I guess I do now.

[ Cale watches him closely, sensing something slightly off and taking note of it, but choosing not to mention it. ]

You seem like an alright person, even with all the hang ups.

Why thank you! I do try to impress.

[ He even winks for it. Lex had been thrown really quite off base from the earlier talk. Right now, he's back to doing a little silly mode. ]

...Try less hard.

[ But at least the guy seems to be getting back to his more annoying self. ]

Nah, that's a good way to get yourself killed.

[ Beer chug chug. Hehe. ]

[ ...? ]

Huh? What nonsense are you spewing?

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